Why is the grass always greener? Or better yet, is it? If
you are one of those people that realize the beauty in what you had – post
having it, are you doomed to never being happy in the present?
As one of those people, I prefer to think of it as a
constant re-evaluation of your self. Often enough those affirmations of the
past are usually me recognizing that my current self isn’t exactly who my old self
thought I was. For some reason holding onto out-dated convictions is a hard
thing to let go of. At just shy of
29 I am looking at all of those absolute statements I have made of myself, my
likes, my dislikes and trying to see what still fits and what I need to let go
of. It turns out, it would be easier to let go of them all and start over.
Fresh.
Easier said than done.
So, is it that we all want to jump the fence? Or are we just
becoming better acquainted with ourselves? And if that is true, for me, for
you, what is the point in preferences at all? If I can look back at the last 10
years of my life and already see so much change in who I thought I was, how am
I going to form ideas of what I will like, and be like in the future?
Maybe preferences have there space in the here and now.
Perhaps it is as short as… today I would like coffee, without the notion of
tomorrow at all… And that’s it. What suits me in this moment?
Because the only thing I can deduct from staring out over
yonder, is that I really have no idea if I will even like grass at all when I
get over there.
