“If you persistently seek validation from others, you will inadvertently invalidate your own self-worth.”
Self-validation begins with being open to vulnerability. Finding courage through your own inner strength. I think I have decided its time for me to become vulnerable. Time to create the life I want to live. In order to do that, you have to go after it… whole-heartedly.
A few years ago a friend of mine was about to purchase land, start building a home, start an organic farm and continue to build this with someone she had known for less than a year. This particular gal, that I have been fortunate enough to know for the past 5 years, is the sort of gal that doesn’t dip her toe in first. My intuition tells me she has always been a whole-hearted person. Jumping in to whatever she does fully. When they first started looking at land, and discussing this whole joint operation, I remember her pulling me aside at work one day, excited, to tell me about it. I remember being awe-struck. Here she was embracing the vulnerability of going after a dream. Unsure of the ending, even unsure of the beginning, but taking that first step to the life she knew she wanted.
For years, I have repeated what I realized when I saw her in action. It takes courage to go after your dreams. Whatever they are. And to manifest the life you want, you have to be okay with the unknown, trust yourself, and be okay with the idea of failure.
“What you are is what you have been. What you’ll be is what you do now.”
So what is this life I want. Well like my friend, I am a bit unsure of the beginning. What I have used as an excuse for too long is the dilemma of the “it”. Whole-Heartedly going after “it” would be so much easier if “It” was clearly laid out. But you have to start somewhere. So over the next few months I am going to be writing and sharing, simply put…about my interests. I would love to be able to say… my interest is this ______. Then everything would fit nicely into it. I mean, I have seen a path forming constantly in front of me, I have become more and more aware of the interest that have stuck around and that have become passions. I thought at one point they would all come together to fit into that nice package. So I could just present it, myself, with a ribbon and just say … here you go.
When I started writing about my experiences, I wanted to use this as my travel guide. For those that may like to travel like me. It was about sharing my style of exploration. As I have remained grounded in one spot over the last year, I found that there are so many thoughts I want to share, and my exploration has turned inwards. I want to explore the boundaries of optimal health, endurance and community. So, I am going to.
A Bold Experiment begins.